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it's nothing that interesting
outside of that stuff i made in a tin can out of everything i could find because i was too lazy to walk back to camp
it was kind of gross

same here

and here I've done that because I didn't have any other choice funny how things like that end up it is really goddamned gross after everything that'd be a really shitty way to die don't you think?

everyone said yuck but they still ate it so must have been something they liked about it
must have been too drunk to care

i don't know. they're all pretty hot

my money's on too drunk to care. hard to enjoy that when you're dead yeah?

i'd rather be killed in a passionate dance with a bunch of hot women instead of fido the trained mob attack goon

fido...

sorry can we not use that right now.

but yeah I hear you. I guess that'd be better all things considered.

there's fido, fifi, spot, kitteh, slither...

i need more names for the attack goons

let's come up with names

just not fido. don't use fido. i don't like fido. how about toothpick douchebag?

okay
toothpick douchebag?
it's a little long for a pet kind of name

i'm not real good at pet names.

alrighty
i guess we'll just have to wing it with target practice

now that I like the sound of.

just don't accidentally shoot me or anything
i make really girly sounds of pain
seriously
like high squeals sounds even

I won't even aim near you. I mean girly squeals sounds kind of hilarious but I wouldn't want to hurt you. I still don't really like the idea of hurting anyone.

[Which makes these conflicting feelings really confusing and distressing.]

hey
targets are just straw and paper
there's no one to hurt and they will never bleed or do anything

people are worse, but one thing i have learned about this?
about having these abilities and knowing that some where in my head is a trigger that'll make me kill?
i am shooting to protect those that can't protect themselves
i'm using my skills that hurt someone to keep those kids on this thing from getting hurt worse
and if i get to that point where it is kill or be killed?
i might end up doing that as well
because my other was someone who had to live by his wits and his skills with a gun
he grew up with no one but his small gang
he saw his parents get killed in riots that the police didn't care about until it spilled over into the rich sections of the city
if i can prevent something like that from happening, i will
even if it means having to hurt someone else

just straw. Alright i can do straw. ...shit, dude. That's. I think I underst- no, I do. I get it and you're right. I didn't know that about you and your other but i understand. I think we've got more in common than i knew. Thank you. For laying it out for me like that. I kept telling myself if i crossed that line there's no turning back But there never was to begin with.

doesn't even have to be man shaped, we can shoot at circles if that makes it better

not very many people do any more
most of them have gone offline

there really isn't the moment you can see the network
the thing to remember is to find a balance within yourself for you and your other
something that both of you can agree on
something both of you will not do
it's a little crazy living with this other memory and life in your skull, but if you can find a balance, then it all becomes easier

that might be easier to start with, yeah. I know I'm being a wuss about this but bear with me. I'm sorry. How often does that happen anyway? Hm... you know that's really helpful. Thank you again. I know i probably don't show it much but you've helped me a lot since i first signed on. I don't know what that thing could be, yet, but I'll try to find it I still don't know enough about him. Who, or what he was. Just a name now. That's somewhere to start I guess.

hey, you ain't being a wuss
you're being a beginner

i've lost count

better than me
all i got was a sunset and a song

you know my parents always told me to be gentle to never hit or scream to get my way, because how would I like it if anyone did that to me? i've tried to keep my promise to them all this time guess i'll have to break it. it's alright i've broken a lot of them over the years maybe they'll forgive me someday. that's kinda sad. do you think we'll all forget once this is all over? how long until you got something you could start to understand about him?

i would say to them that you had to protect those you care about
you have to become hard because there are so many who are not
and you have these skills and it would be a waste to not use them when you can prevent others from getting hurt worse
i think that they would understand
it's not about breaking a promise
it's about making a bigger promise to those that cannot do what you can

i don't know. i hope not i've met some good people on here

a few months. i got bits and pieces of stuff that he had or things like the accent before i got a real memory

... thank you. Really, I mean it. I don't know what else to say but that that really puts it into perspective I'm going to use that, when they ask if that's alright with you Hah apparently my other agrees with you. Guess we're on the same page after all. I hope not, too. As bad as some things have been I don't want to forget. It'd cheapen the whole thing. Hah, yeah, me too. I got the nasty temper, funny hair, and a sword long before I got any idea of what the guy was about or even who he was. Unrelated[Right.] but what are your feelings on demons?

Edited (one day I'll be happy with this bluh) 2014-09-06 21:45 (UTC)

go right ahead
use it whenever you ask yourself what we are doing

he does? well, that's lucky

it will cheapen everything forgetting

i even got a bullet scar right in my lung

considering where i might be going? they're people too
unless they are the people that are trying to stomp on me and then they will become a target

maybe i should write it down and keep it with me for a while I think I'll do that. tell me about it. maybe he wasn't a complete lunatic after all. shit, how did you get that? but you're right, it'd cheapen everything. and hey, with the scars we've got now we'll make a matching set. ...don't jump the gun on me too quick. i have a hard time going after a mobster you think I could turn on you?

i tell it to myself every time i remember another piece of my other's world

can still be crazy, just smart crazy, you know?

we were goofing around with water guns after taking pictures for a book and we decided to act out a goofy gangster or old west movie with the one bullet left thing, right? next thing i knew, i was under water with them trying to get me out of it and a bullet wound on my chest. it's faded down a bit now and looks about six years old, but according to the ct i had, i should have been shot dead but instead i have scarring inside and out from it

no i don't. i mean if someone attacks me i will defend myself not that i will kill them
i don't think i can do that yet

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