i tell it to myself every time i remember another piece of my other's world

can still be crazy, just smart crazy, you know?

we were goofing around with water guns after taking pictures for a book and we decided to act out a goofy gangster or old west movie with the one bullet left thing, right? next thing i knew, i was under water with them trying to get me out of it and a bullet wound on my chest. it's faded down a bit now and looks about six years old, but according to the ct i had, i should have been shot dead but instead i have scarring inside and out from it

no i don't. i mean if someone attacks me i will defend myself not that i will kill them
i don't think i can do that yet